14. Thank God For Shonda Rhimes  

Find something to look forward to, a reason to get out of bed in the morning.  It can be literally anything.  It can be easier to keep yourself going through the hard days if you have something to look forward to, something you want to do or see.  Something you don’t want to miss out on. 

For me, the biggest thing has been my kids. When a doctor told me I had only a few years left to be with my family, I said, no (in my mind).  I didn’t want to miss out on seeing my kids grow up.  I just kept planning and looking forward to our lives like usual, only more so.

But it’s not just the big things that keep you going, it’s the little things too.  Like planning on taking a vacation.  Or maybe something as small as a new coffee frappuccino coming out at Starbucks next month.  Something to actively plan for and look forward to.  

My daughter got me to read one of the Harry Potter books, and that instantly gave me another thing to look forward to.  I couldn’t wait to read the next book in the series, and the next, and the next, until I had read them all.  And then there were the films based on the books to see and to look forward to.  My ALS just had to slow down because I wasn’t going anywhere until I had seen all of the Harry Potter movies!  I saw them all.  That’s when the Powers That Be/God, lead me to Shonda Rhimes.  Also known as the creator of some of the best shows on TV, and you guessed it, another reason for me to hang in there for one more season of, “How To Get Away With Murder “, “Scandal “, and “Grey’s Anatomy”.  I’m not gonna miss out on what happens with Merideth Grey because of ALS!  Ok, I am not saying that all you have to do to keep going when dealing with a serious illness is to find something to look forward to …but, focusing on something besides your illness is a huge piece in the puzzle.  I am looking forward to seeing  Alice Cooper in concert this summer, I don’t want to miss that.  And on and on it goes.  I am just going to keep on keeping on, and finding new things, both big and small, to look forward to for as long as I possibly can.  

13. Forget About It

Forget about it! Said in your best mobster (think Tony Soprano or Mickey Blue Eyes ) voice.  We live in a world where the things you focus on are the things that manifest in your life. Did you ever notice when you try and try to save up money for something you really want, how hard it can be? Your thoughts migrate towards your lack of money. Your focus on your lack of money continues to bring about a shortage of funds.

Have you heard the saying, “The rich get richer and the poor get poorer”. While it’s just a saying, there may be some truth to it. It is, after all, very difficult to think about anything other than your absence of money, when money is what you really need. It is much easier to envision always having enough money when you already possess money. Likewise with your health, and everything else in your life. The more you concentrate on something, the more you receive exactly
what you are concentrating on. So, if you are sick, the more you talk and think about your illness, the more it clings to you. If you no longer want to be struggling with something, forget about what you don’t have, and focus on how great you will feel when you have what you want. I know, that’s easier said than done, especially with health issues. You still have to deal with doctors, tests, treatments and medications probably on a daily basis. so your illness is on your mind often.

My favorite author, Pam Grout, offers a series of simple experiments to help us understand just how the universe works, in her book, E-Squared: Nine Do-It-Yourself Energy Experiments That Prove Your Thoughts Create Your Reality https://www.amazon.com/dp/1401938906/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_EHtwzbKFXBYSC

 She does a much better job of explaining things than I could, so I suggest you read her book.  But, the gist of it is that God (or whatever you prefer …Mother Earth, the Great Spirit, etc) is always listening and gives you what you are focused on in life.  So, we need to focus on what we want and forget about what we don’t want, i.e. probably your current situation.  Like I said, she does a much better job of explaining it. But I think she is spot on!  I have done most of her experiments, and have received everything from a bright blue butterfly to a seahorse, to a surprise credit of $24.85, to a write off of a student loan (a total surprise)!  

I don’t have this all figured out, I do, after all, still have ALS.  But, I try not to focus on that, and instead, focus on all the awesomeness in life and expect more amazing things to come my way.

12. Just Do It 

Sometimes, the longer you stay in your house because you don’t feel well, the easier it becomes to never go out.  I don’t think you can really understand that unless you’ve lived with a long term illness.  I remember a life, long ago, when I was always on the go.  Both before and after their were kids to take up my time, I was always busy, probably too busy.  I can remember a time when I owned a computer, but rarely had the time to use it.  My computer and IPhone are now what link me to the world outside my house. 

When you have a serious illness, you may find yourself leaving your house less and less, the longer you are sick.  I was just too tired to go out much at first.  Then everything became so hard, and took so much longer than it used to, it hardly seemed worth the effort required to go anywhere.  Add to that, pain, if it’s below 50 degrees.  Having a comfortable chair at home with warm blankets in the winter, a nice breeze (or air conditioning) in the summertime, all add up to staying home.  A lot.  In the winter, I don’t go anywhere for weeks, sometimes (depending on the weather) months at a time.  When warmer weather arrives, I get out more often.  Sometimes you have to force yourself to go out into the world.  Just do it.  No matter how uncomfortable you may be, physically and mentally, don’t let yourself go all Grey Gardens.  Just do it.  I always feel better after getting out of the house for a bit, even if I don’t really go anywhere, or if my outing doesn’t go smoothly.  I went out one day earlier this year, and practically knocked myself out (I had a little accidental help) hitting my head as I got into the car.  That being said, even with the slight concussion (I’m guessing), I was glad I went out for a few hours.

I remember being out one day, many years ago.  We had eaten dinner at Applebee’s, and were leaving our table, when a man sitting at a nearby table looked at us and said, “Good for you , going out! It might be hard, but you keep going out!”  I have no idea who he was, or why he said that, but he was right.  No matter how hard it is, you have to get out and get a little vitamin D.  Even if you don’t go any further than out the front door.  Just do it.  I guarantee (mostly) you’ll be glad you did.

7. Chill 

One warm day, my daughters took me to Applebee’s for lunch.  We got there early, around 11:30.  When the waitress came to take our drink order, I ordered one of the mixed drinks (with alcohol) off of their little drinks and desserts menu.  The waitress looked at her watch and made some comment about me starting the drinks early and something about it not even being noon yet.  Maybe I should have told her that I don’t often leave my house and go out to lunch, so when I do, I try to enjoy myself and that I enjoy having a drink that I wouldn’t normally have at home.  Maybe I should have made a comment about the time when she brought our drinks, because it was way past noon before that happened.  Not only was I not driving , but I was not even walking!  I later made a comment with my tip.  Why does she think it’s wrong to drink before noon?  Why can’t I wear white after Labor Day?  Why don’t people eat seafood at breakfast time or have pancakes for dinner?  Why is it weird to like dandelions in your yard?  Who made up all these rules and standards of behavior?  No wonder little kids are so happy, they don’t know all the rules yet.  The older we get, the less happy we seem to be.  Maybe it’s the whole terminal illness thing.  You know that, “I don’t know how long I will be here so I should make the most of every day ” thing, but it just seems to me that there are too many silly guidelines someone, somewhere decided we should follow.  I seem to care less and less about such things as time goes on.  I care less about so many things, including those things that often pop up in the gossip category.  So what if the neighbors granddaughter is unexpectedly expecting?  She will figure things out.  No, I can’t believe how many people go to the store dressed in whatever they’ve slept in, but that’s their choice.  If they want to look ridiculous, that makes my shopping trip that much more entertaining.  So what if your kid sucks at Algebra!  If they aren’t good at math, help them find what they are good at.  I find myself stressing less and less, and rarely worrying about anything.  I must say, life is much more enjoyable this way.   ALS is kind of like a gigantic hard to swallow, chill pill.  It is hard to swallow/accept, but once you do, you (or at least I) chill out and quit worrying about all those things that once seemed so important.   Even those problems or situations which seemed overwhelming suddenly aren’t so impossible.  If at all possible, I recommend that you try to chill out a bit even if you aren’t dealing with a serious illness.  Who knows, that might be just what you need to prevent an illness from arising.  If you find that you need a little help getting your “chill” on, check out this video of Willie Nelson.  Because, is there anyone on Earth who is more chill than Willie?

3. You Oughta Know 

This blog post seemed like a good one for all of the moms out there.  Happy Mothers Day!

When you are not able to easily make note of appointments, shopping lists, your kids busy schedules, etc., you rely on your memory. I am talking about when you physically can’t write anything down without the help of a switch or a computer eye gaze system, and not just because you can’t find a pen, or your phone. This is true for anyone who has trouble using their hands for whatever reason, but it’s  especially true if you are a mom. You should not only sharpen up your memory, but you will find that life is easier if you can practice your psychic skills as well. Because, believe me, it won’t matter if you are feeling so bad that you have been in bed for weeks, or if you haven’t physically been able to move your arms or legs in years… when your kid can’t find their left tennis shoe, or backpack, or whatever it may be, you will be the one they yell for. You are the one they will expect to help find it. So, if you can’t get up and go find it yourself,  you had better hope your psychic abilities kick in so that you can magically tell them where said item is located. Besides knowing where all personal belongings are located at all times, you will also be expected to know things like, are you out of Oreo’s? Do you have any orange juice in the fridge? It doesn’t matter if your wheelchair won’t fit in your pantry, or if you can’t physically open the door to your refrigerator. You are the mom and that means you ought to know.

This “you oughta know ” theory comes into play with husbands too. You may not be able to write a check, but you should somehow know where your husband put the checkbook. Also, are there any stamps left, and where are they? The list literally never ends.

What does any of this have to do with the Billy Joel video, you ask? Well, nothing, except that the lyrics, “you oughta know by now “, are in the chorus and kept running through my head as I wrote this.  Also, music makes everything more enjoyable!

So,  if you are dealing with a serious illness, you might want to start taking some Ginkgo Biloba. I  think that’s the herb that helps improve your memory. I probably oughta know that too.